Toamna, 2005. Era neobisnuit de cald afara, iar cerul senin parea ca-mi soptea ca urma sa mi se intample ceva bun. Dar cine eram eu atunci? O tanara de 19 ani, frumusica si cu visuri mari. In timp ce prietenele mele se laudau cu iubiti si relatii stabile, in capul meu se contura cu greu portretul barbatului ideal. Mi-era teama. Tatal meu a lipsit pe parcursul copilariei si adolescentei mele, lucru care m-a impedicat sa pot defini paternitatea in vreun fel. E dureros sa te transformi in femeie, fara sa ai un parinte care sa te sacaie, sa te protejeze si sa se mandreasca pe ascuns cu tine. Simti ca nu esti complet. Dar esti, in schimb, foarte vulnerabil. Partea buna este ca aceasta absenta m-a determinat sa vreau langa mine un om care sa fie in primul rand PREZENT in viata mea. Sa ma asculte si sa mi se alature intru totul. Sa vada dincolo de ochi, de zambet, de trup. Sa aiba rabdare cu mine si cu gandurile mele, oricat de intortocheate ar fi fost ele la varsta aceea.

La indemnul celor din jurul meu, nu ezitam sa particip ocazional la concursuri de frumusete. Asa a aflat de mine administratoarea unei agentii de modelling, care m-a contactat si mi-a propus totodata sa particip la un casting. Castingul in urma caruia s-a decis cine va fi imaginea Lotus Center, primul mall din Oradea. Nu stiam exact ce vreau, dar o voce interioara mi-a soptit sa merg. Iar faptul ca mi-am ascultat intuitia a fost cea mai buna decizie pe care am luat-o vreodata.

Am devenit curand cea despre care multi dintre voi ati auzit – „Beatrice de la Lotus”. Dar transformarea uriasa care avea loc in mine nu se datora noului loc de munca. Era de vina omul special pe care l-am cunoscut. Omul care mi-a schimbat viata. Alexandru Mudura.

Sunt sigura ca tu, cel care citesti acest articol, m-ai judecat de nenumarate ori. Am fost miza multor rautati si nu mi-a fost usor. Dar in sufletul meu este liniste. In primul rand, sunt onorata ca am cunoscut un model incontestabil din toate punctele de vedere. Un om care a cladit succesul caramida cu caramida, fara sa fi ranit vreodata pe cineva. De la inceput, el a vazut in mine mult mai mult decat un chip angelic. A vazut intr-o tanara de 19 ani femeia care am devenit astazi. Si si-a asumat sa ma formeze, sa ma indrume si sa ma slefuiasca pana cand aveam sa devin diamantul pe care si-l dorea cu ardoare.

De ce mi-e dor cel mai mult? De conversatiile noastre interminabile. De cultura, de pasiunile si de dedicarea lui (a fost declarat cetatean de onoare al orasului Oradea si a fost totodata o persoana care si-a iubit enorm tara). De povestile lui fascinante. De bunul gust. De manierele lui ireprosabile. De gesturile fine si privirile blande. De sufletul lui cald si de felul in care m-a iubit. De faptul ca a fost primul om care m-a intrebat vreodata cum vad eu viata. Ce asteptari am. Ce imi place.

Poate ca tatal meu nu a fost alaturi de mine. Poate ca nu mi-a fost usor in viata. Dar cred mult ca atunci cand Dumnezeu iti ia ceva, te binecuvanteaza cu altceva. Iar binecuvantarea mea cea mare a fost sa am langa mine un barbat-model, care mi-a fost simultan iubit, parinte si prieten. Un barbat care astazi nu mai e aici sa-si sarbatoreasca ziua de nastere la un pahar de palinca de prune si o discutie ca in povesti …

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It was autumn, 2005. The weather was wonderful and the sky was whispering that something good was going to happen. But who was I then? A 19 year old girl, young, beautiful and with big dreams. While my friends were having nice and stable relationships, the portrait of the perfect man was nearly shaping itself in my head. I was scared. My father hasn’t been near me – neither in my childhood nor in my adolescence. This made it impossible for me to define paternity. It is hard to grow up without a parent that would protect you, tease you and be proud of you. You feel that you aren’t complete. But you are instead extremely vulnerable. The good part is that this absence taught me to want a man in my life that would be, first of all, PRESENT. He would listen to me and be with me unconditionally. He would see beneath the eyes, the smile, the body. He would have patience with me and my thoughts, no matter how unbearable they would be at that age. 

Because many people around me advised me to do so, I participated at several beauty contests. This is how I met an administrator of a modelling agency, who proposed me to go to a casting. The casting for the image of Lotus Center, the first mall in Oradea. I didn’t know what I want, but the decision to go was the best I’ve ever made. 

I soon became the woman many of you heard of – `Beatrice from Lotus`. But the huge transformation that was taking place inside me wasn’t due to my new workplace. It was the man I met that made me become a better version of myself. The man that changed my life. Alexandru Mudura.

I am sure that you – the person that reads this article – have judged me several times. I’ve been the subject of many gossips and it wasn’t easy at all. But my soul is calm. First of all, I am honoured to have met such an extraordinary man. A role-model from every point of view. A man that built success brick by brick, without hurting anyone. From the beginning, he saw in me the woman that I could become. He saw more than an angelic face. And he promised to take care of me and to cherish me until I would become the one he would so much wish. 

What do I miss the most? Our long conversations. His culture, his passions and his dedication (he was an honored citizen of Oradea and has loves his country a lot). I miss his fascinating stories. His tastes. His manners. His way of loving me. His fine gestures and warm eyes. I miss the fact that he was the first man that asked me what do I want in life. He asked me about my wishes. My passions.

Maybe my father wasn’t near me. Maybe my life wasn’t easy. But I am sure that when God takes something away from you, he also makes sure to give you something back as a compensation. And my most important blessing was to meet this man who was equally my partner, my parent and my friend. A man that isn’t here anymore to celebrate his birthday at a glass of `palinca` and a pleasant conversation … 

Articolul Alexandru Mudura, omul care mi-a schimbat viata || The man that changed my life apare prima dată în Beautify by Beatrice.